Month: January 2015


Last night I stood outside while the horses ate their grain. I love standing there, listening to the slow munching and gentle sighs. It’s my own little slice of heaven.

As I was standing there, I watched the stars move slowly across the sky above us. I could see Orion quite clearly, even with traces of high clouds. In my peripheral vision, I noticed a cluster of stars. It was roughly the size of my thumb from where I stood. But when I moved my eyes to look at it, I couldn’t see it. I looked away toward another star and could clearly see a cluster of many, many stars. Again, when I looked at the spot where it was, it was gone.

I thought a lot about focus standing there. How often, when we focus on something, we actually lose sight of it. How when we hold tightly to something, we lose it.

Why is this?

I am aware that when I try to focus intently on something, I really contract down to concentrate that much. I squint my eyes. I even tighten my body more. When I relax my focus, when I relax my brow & drop my shoulders, I can actually see more clearly.

This has happened to me during a guided meditation too. The facilitator was talking and we were relaxing more and more into the meditation and a picture began to come to me. I tried to focus on the picture and it went away. I found myself searching the backs of my eyelids with my eyeballs. When I let go and began to relax again, it began to come to me. Again, I tried to see what it was and “look at it.” It quickly went away.

What if NOT focusing on something is the key to bringing it to you?

What if letting it go is what is required?

Have you ever lost something…the vision of something perhaps…trying too hard to focus on it?

Much Gratitude!


Feeling Cold

Minnesota is an interesting place to live. I think it takes a certain kind of somebody to live here. I am certainly not that kind of somebody 75% of the time. I cannot stand the cold that is Minnesota winters. I love to talk about how I can’t wait to leave this frozen tundra.

All that being said…

An interesting thing occurred this morning as I was filling the water trough and putting out hay for the horses. I began to sweat. I was sweating quite a lot for me…in January. The interesting part is that I wasn’t wearing 500 layers. I was wearing jeans, a long sleeve shirt and a coat. I had just gotten out of the shower and had my wet hair twisted up in a towel. I wore gloves so I wouldn’t get my hands wet.

Then I began to think…

Maybe it’s warmer out than I thought it was supposed to be.

Upon returning to the house to dry my hair while the tank filled, I checked the weather app. 9⁰ out. That’s right, folks, NINE DEGREES!

Why the heck am I sweating in 9⁰ when just last week I was wearing full snow gear in 20⁰ weather?

Bodies can be strange.

At the start of fall, 40⁰ feels frigid. But by spring, that same temperature means I no longer wear a coat outside.

Today, in 9° weather, I didn’t feel cold. How awesome is that?

What if feeling is all relative? What if feeling changes with each passing day?

Oh, wait! It does.

Feelings aren’t permanent.

So, if you feel like crap today….

What else is possible that I never even imagined?
How can the day show up better than I ever thought?
How does it get better than this?

And if today, you feel fabulous…

What else is possible that I never even imagined?
How can the day show up better than I ever thought?
How does it get better than this?

Because it can always get better than we think it can!!

Much Graitude,