Getting What You Ask For

It’s an interesting thing when this happens. Especially when the package is different.

I mean, how many times do we get what we ask for….it just doesn’t quite match the picture in our head of how it is supposed to be.

Supposed to….boy, does that get us into some sticky stuff. What is “supposed to” anyway?

So, how do I know if I am getting what I am asking for?

Here’s a little anecdote for you…

Recently, my lovely husband and I have been through some icky job-related stuff. In the process, we both began searching out other options. We got many closed doors…some even slammed shut. The one door that was open was something neither of us was really excited about. It was something we both had strong points of view about and just (for whatever reason) did not want to do.

After several meetings and nothing but green lights (read…not a single red flag and nothing but light, light, light all the way), I was asking something along the lines of What the f*@# is going on here? (Not actually a question, by the way.) We don’t really want this…not like this. Why is this the only open door?

Out of the sky like a ton of freaking bricks, an awareness hit me over the head. It was a simple, yet profound, awareness.

Is this what we’ve been asking for? Is this what we’ve been wanting all along and it just doesn’t look like we thought it would look?

I immediately texted my hubby: I am going to ask you a question. I need you to get out of your head and tune in with your gut. When you read the question, is it light or heavy? No head-tripping. And then I texted him: Is this what we’ve been asking for?

His reply was simple: Light.

Sometimes, it shows up so different than what we have pictured that we don’t even recognize it.

And worse, we sometimes dismiss it and reject the gift.

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